I’m back to work since vacations end. It seems I have a very busy week ahead of me. I’m still struggling with him being away. I know it’s just another day that I am stress. Tomorrow I’m going to be just fine. Long distance relationships are never easy but I know there’s nothing going to tear us apart. The thing is we already are apart and it seems nothing worse than that. I've cried a thousand times over things that I can't change--hoping that someday it will. But tears and emotional wouldn’t help much with my situation—instead it makes thing worse.

 

Sometimes it seems like my long distance relationship will remain long distance forever. Sometimes it doesn’t seem a bad idea.  I’ve been on my own for so long now. I don’t know how it feels if we can get our life together. But then it feels so great when I hear him laugh and how I love to look into his beautiful eyes. And how it feels to be in his arms. I know how lucky I am to have him

 

There’s always a feeling of guilt, desperate  that stays with me. Even we already have conversations and we agree we should be together! But it seems like these are not really helping me from not being sad. How many times I remind myself how lucky we are to each other, even we aren’t in the same place.

 

The bitch Jan Brewer is at Dion's restaurant Hole In The Wall @ Hilton Squaw Peak on 16th and Glendale. Go bitch her out for being a douchebag and taking away domestic partnerships for government employees! get up there now!

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The First Doctor

	William Hartnell 1963-1966 Doddering. Hmmn. Hmmn. Hmmn. Yes. Go forward in all your beliefs. Enigmatic alien. Radioactive cinder. Grandfather. Irascible. Chesterton. Lapels. Ormulu clock. Querulous. Fast return switch.
Season One - 1963-64 The Pilot Episode An Unearthly Child The Daleks The Edge of Destruction Marco Polo The Keys of Marinus The Aztecs The Sensorites The Reign of Terror	Season Two - 1964-65 Planet of Giants The Dalek Invasion of Earth The Rescue The Romans  The Web Planet The Crusade The Space Museum The Chase The Time Meddler
Season Three - 1965-66 Galaxy 4 Mission to the Unknown The Myth Makers The Daleks' Master Plan The Massacre The Ark The Celestial Toymaker The Gunfighters The Savages The War Machines	Season Four - 1966 The Smugglers The Tenth Planet

The Second Doctor

	Patrick Troughton 1966-1969 Cosmic hobo. Baggy trousers. When I say run. Recorder. Stovepipe hat. Twinkling eyes. Butterfingers. Jamie, Jamie, hold on!
Season Four - 1966-67 The Power of the Daleks The Highlanders The Underwater Menace The Moonbase The Macra Terror The Faceless Ones The Evil of the Daleks	Season Five - 1967-68 The Tomb of the Cybermen The Abominable Snowmen The Ice Warriors The Enemy of the World The Web of Fear Fury from the Deep The Wheel In Space
Season Six - 1968-69 The Dominators The Mind Robber The Invasion The Krotons The Seeds of Death The Space Pirates The War Games

The Third Doctor

	Jon Pertwee 1970-1974 Dandy. Yellow car. Purple velvet. UNIT Family. Worzel Gummidge. Venusian karate. Klokeda partha menin klatch. Whomobile. Action by HAVOC. All wearing eyepatches.
Season Seven - 1970 Spearhead from Space Doctor Who and the Silurians The Ambassadors of Death Inferno	Season Eight - 1971 Terror of the Autons The Mind of Evil The Claws of Axos Colony In Space The Daemons
Season Nine - 1972 Day of the Daleks The Curse of Peladon The Sea Devils The Mutants The Time Monster	Season Ten - 1972-1973 The Three Doctors Carnival of Monsters Frontier In Space Planet of the Daleks The Green Death
Season Eleven - 1973 - 1974 The Time Warrior Invasion of the Dinosaurs Death to the Daleks The Monster of Peladon Planet of the Spiders

The Fourth Doctor

	Tom Baker: 1974 - 1981 Teeth and curls. Jelly babies. Lovable robot dog. Ahhhhh-har. Scarf. Have I the right? Ooh, my everything! It's the end...
Season Twelve - 1974-75 Robot The Ark in Space The Sontaran Experiment Genesis of the Daleks Revenge of the Cybermen	Season Thirteen - 1975-76 Terror of the Zygons Planet of Evil Pyramids of Mars The Android Invasion The Brain of Morbius The Seeds of Doom
Season Fourteen - 1976-77 The Masque of Mandragora The Hand of Fear The Deadly Assassin The Face of Evil The Robots of Death The Talons of Weng-Chiang	Season Fifteen - 1977-78 Horror of Fang Rock The Invisible Enemy Image of the Fendahl The Sun Makers Underworld The Invasion of Time
Season Sixteen - 1978-79 The Ribos Operation The Pirate Planet The Stones of Blood The Androids of Tara The Power of Kroll The Armageddon Factor	Season Seventeen - 1979-80 Destiny of the Daleks City of Death The Creature from the Pit Nightmare of Eden The Horns of Nimon Shada
Season Eighteen - 1980-81 The Leisure Hive Meglos The E-Space Trilogy Full Circle State of Decay Warriors' Gate The Keeper of Traken Logopolis

The Fifth Doctor

	Peter Davison 1982-1984 Cricketer. Brave heart, Tegan. Pleasant, open face. Wet vet. Kamelion. Celery. Master's cunning disguises.
Season Nineteen - 1982 Castrovalva Four To Doomsday Kinda The Visitation Black Orchid Earthshock Time-Flight	Season Twenty - 1983 Arc of Infinity Snakedance The Guardian Trilogy: Mawdryn Undead Terminus Enlightenment The King's Demons
20th Anniversary Special The Five Doctors	Season Twenty-One - 1984 Warriors of the Deep The Awakening Frontios Resurrection of the Daleks Planet of Fire The Caves of Androzani

The Sixth Doctor

	Colin Baker 1984-1986 Brash. Cat badge. Video nasty. Cancelled. Hiatus. Doctor in distress. Valeyard. Carrot juice. Carrot juice. Carrot juice
Season Twenty-One - 1984 The Twin Dilemma	Season Twenty-Two - 1985 Attack of the Cybermen Vengeance On Varos The Mark of the Rani The Two Doctors Timelash Revelation of the Daleks
Season Twenty-Three- 1986 The Trial of a Timelord:  The Mysterious Planet Mindwarp Terror of the Vervoids The Ultimate Foe

The Seventh Doctor

	Sylvester McCoy 1987-1989 Spoons. Braces. Cartmel masterplan. Panama hat. Umbrella. Ace! Rrrrrolling rrrrrrs. Professor! Wicked! Cliffhanger. Pullover. Dark and mysterious. Burnt toast.
Season Twenty-Four - 1987 Time And the Rani Paradise Towers Delta And the Bannermen Dragonfire	Season Twenty-Five - 1988 Remembrance of the Daleks The Happiness Patrol Silver Nemesis The Greatest Show In the Galaxy
Season Twenty-Six - 1989 Battlefield Ghost Light The Curse of Fenric Survival

The Eighth Doctor

Paul McGann - 1996 Kissing. Shoes. Grace. Beryllium clock. Half human. Who am I? Eye of harmony. Nice TARDIS.  The TV Movie

I’m not a karaoke lover. I enjoyed sing a song without microphone and music. At least it is less annoyed—at least it isn’t as loud.

 

After a year I had a chance to go to karaoke last Thursday. I felt really old! At least the song I can think of isn’t that modern. How old is Rod Stewart and ABBA by the way?

 

Anyway, you probably know how Thai people crazy about Karaoke—and that’s nothing wrong. In comparison Filipinos are 10 times crazy. And I got use to it when I was there; people sing a song and dance. Believe it or not! About a half of the population has a karaoke box at home!!!

 

Anyway the karaoke was suppose to be Cool and Fun thing to do. At least when you feel lonely or being under pressure, But this Karaoke night isn’t going to be fun because we got stood up!

 

 

Somebody who organizes this party has already invited

around 15 people or so and they didn’t show up! And this party was supposed to be more likely a wedding party announcement… but the soon-to-be gloom appeared there only 15 mins and he just left!

 

There were only 3 people left in a big room, the room was quite more than a normal Karaoke room because that was supposed to be 15 people there. Anyway, we managed to sing and dance and ordered some foods.  

 

After the party ends, its time to pay the bills!  And the worst part was that who is going to pay the bill?

 

We stared at each other and silence.

 

You know I can't smile without you. I can't smile without you. I can't laugh and I can't sing— this song popup in my head  in that moment.

 

There’s nothing worst that you know you have to pay something you’re not supposed to pay. It feel like you pay for your underwear and it doesn’t fit you ever!

 

Well, life doesn’t fit. Life is change. Life is Life.

 

After a while, a waiter hands me a bill. “Here you are…”

 

"Er.. right…"  we'resupposed to pay this. of course we will. we have to! 

 

Well, after the party ends, how fun? Imagine that this was my wedding party announcement thingy and there were only a few people there. That is still 10 times better than this feeling. A feeling that we got stood up and nobody care each other anymore in this society. They care only about themselves. And now that was a karaoke voice in my head.

 

 

I have just had a rotten day. The day that I want to just sit alone and cried. But I couldn’t… The day I felt so humiliated, embarrassed, disappointed, and worthless. And I still have that feeling with me all the time but I need to go on.

 

My parents tired to arrange my wedding without asking me. They asked my boyfriend instead. I know they’re conservative and I know they care about their image. 

But what about me?  I want to shout at them... like Er… Hello? Why are you doing this to me? I’m a human and I have a feeling. I can be pain and I can be hurt.  I don’t think they listen to me.

 Even my relationship is good but I never ask for help! They don’t have the right to do anything about it!

 

We were happy and enjoyed out relationship—I wanted to stay a happy couple and then later we can see what this love has got to do for us, but what now!? Somebody stepped there and force us to married… Are you joking? If we are not ready why we need to? What marriage really means? A ceremony, people and cakes? Isn’t that loving each other is more important?  Well, maybe not…

 

I feel a pang inside after we finished talking. I couldn’t do anything. It was like my whole world has turned around. It was a serious impact on us. How could I ask him if he wanted to marry me or not? How could I bear if he said that he doesn’t or I’m not ready? Should that be the end of our relationship?  But if he wanted to I would think because of my family has been forced him to do that anyway.

 

What my parents should know is that they are not going to make me marry anyone by their behavior.

 

When you're living in both conservative and modern country. Where you can see both thing twisted. Especially when you are Thai woman, you are in between those tradition conservation and modern kind of things. And you are being confused all the time.

 

I really don’t understand why Thai parents forced their child especially their daughter to married before make sure if they love each other or they’re match. Also when the relationship won’t work anymore, a divorce considered tainted for women.

 

What would I say with my situation? Where the society has been banned a mini-skirt (because they think that the invitation for rape) but you can find coyote girls at many events and a lot of night clubs more than just bookstore.

There’s no easy way to handle that ever!

If I have to write about my vacations, first thing I couldn’t forget and it still scare me every night was that my sleeping walking and screaming just came back lately during my trip, and this time getting worse. I even broke the curtain rail.

I awake that night at the hotel and I seem to forget everything I did. I didn’t know what I did exactly but Colin told me that I screamed and we found out after turn the light on that the curtain rail already broken. I stood there for awhile and tried to think of what I did but useless, I can’t remember anything.

I just notice that I had a sore throat and my arms hurts so much, there was a little cut on my left arm and bruise on his arm as well.

We weren’t sure what to do … and I couldn’t fall asleep again after, I manange to sleep at last after 2 hours.

I did what I don’t remember and it was so terrible to have these symptoms back again. I wanted to cry—even I know that’s not being helpful.

Remembering, I use to send SMS while I was sleeping and I didn’t remember anything. That was terrible but this was worse.

The next morning, I told the housekeeper at the hotel that the curtain rail needs to be fix,  then she asked someone to fix it, it took 2 or 3 hours to fix and they even need to changed the new rail. I really feel so terrible about this thing. Anyway, the hotel didn’t charge us for that, they simply thought their curtain rail was too old. :P

 

But well, broken curtain rail can be fix, but what about me? Can I be fixed?

THE JOB - URINE TEST (Whoever wrote this one deserves a HUGE pat on the back!)