I’m back to work since vacations end. It seems I have a very busy week ahead of me. I’m still struggling with him being away. I know it’s just another day that I am stress. Tomorrow I’m going to be just fine. Long distance relationships are never easy but I know there’s nothing going to tear us apart. The thing is we already are apart and it seems nothing worse than that. I've cried a thousand times over things that I can't change--hoping that someday it will. But tears and emotional wouldn’t help much with my situation—instead it makes thing worse.
Sometimes it seems like my long distance relationship will remain long distance forever. Sometimes it doesn’t seem a bad idea. I’ve been on my own for so long now. I don’t know how it feels if we can get our life together. But then it feels so great when I hear him laugh and how I love to look into his beautiful eyes. And how it feels to be in his arms. I know how lucky I am to have him
There’s always a feeling of guilt, desperate that stays with me. Even we already have conversations and we agree we should be together! But it seems like these are not really helping me from not being sad. How many times I remind myself how lucky we are to each other, even we aren’t in the same place.

You've heard about carbon offsetting, where your decision to drive a Hummer or fly by private jet can be "offset" by paying a fee to a company like TerraPass to reduce your carbon footprint elsewhere. But what about hate offsetting? As in, if you want to buy a product from somebody who supports anti-gay efforts, can you offset your funding of homophobia by giving money to a pro-gay cause?
No, you cannot. And it's ridiculous to assume you could.
Except that's what the website GayGamer was advising video gamers this summer who absolutely had to purchase the Xbox 360 title Shadow Complex, which is based on sci-fi writer Orson Scott Card's Empire series. Which means in all likelihood (we haven't read the contracts) that your purchase of Shadow Complex from Chair Entertainment and Epic Game puts money directly into the pocket of Card, the National Organization for Marriage board member who thinks men and women become gay through childhood rape or molestation. (Card also called for the overthrow of government if Prop 8 didn't pass.)
By many accounts, Shadow Complex is a fantastic game. And just because it's benefiting a virulent homophobe isn't enough to keep some players from buying the game. So if you must have it, GayGamer advises you "offset" the hate funding by donating a few bucks to a gay charity. Will that be enough to keep you with a clear conscious?
It shouldn't.
Putting money directly into the hands of parties who campaign against gay rights is hard to defend on any level, even if you're also giving money to groups fighting for gay rights. You cannot have it both ways.

You cannot buy Stephenie Meyer's Twilight — which, because she is Mormon, some 10 percent of her profits will end up going to the Church's anti-gay crusade — and then also donate the same amount to the Courage Campaign. You are still funding hatred. You don't get to stay at Prop 8-funder Doug Manchester's Hyatt hotel in San Diego and then write a check for the price of your room and mini bar addiction to Equality California.
Consider the second-grade logic: It's the equivalent of donating cash to Protect Maine Equality and Stand For Marriage Maine. You wouldn't consider that scenario. So why are you considering the others? Because you absolutely must buy products that benefit civil rights rapists?
You might be able to find a moral excuse in there somewhere. We can't. But we're willing to be swayed.
The bitch Jan Brewer is at Dion's restaurant Hole In The Wall @ Hilton Squaw Peak on 16th and Glendale. Go bitch her out for being a douchebag and taking away domestic partnerships for government employees! get up there now!
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William Hartnell 1963-1966 Patrick Troughton 1966-1969 Jon Pertwee 1970-1974 Peter Davison 1982-1984 Colin Baker 1984-1986 Sylvester McCoy 1987-1989 Paul McGann - 1996The First Doctor

Season One - 1963-64
The Pilot Episode
An Unearthly Child
The Daleks
The Edge of Destruction
Marco Polo
The Keys of Marinus
The Aztecs
The Sensorites
The Reign of TerrorSeason Two - 1964-65
Planet of Giants
The Dalek Invasion of Earth
The Rescue
The Romans
The Web Planet
The Crusade
The Space Museum
The Chase
The Time Meddler Season Three - 1965-66
Galaxy 4
Mission to the Unknown
The Myth Makers
The Daleks' Master Plan
The Massacre
The Ark
The Celestial Toymaker
The Gunfighters
The Savages
The War MachinesSeason Four - 1966
The Smugglers
The Tenth PlanetThe Second Doctor

Season Four - 1966-67
The Power of the Daleks
The Highlanders
The Underwater Menace
The Moonbase
The Macra Terror
The Faceless Ones
The Evil of the DaleksSeason Five - 1967-68
The Tomb of the Cybermen
The Abominable Snowmen
The Ice Warriors
The Enemy of the World
The Web of Fear
Fury from the Deep
The Wheel In SpaceSeason Six - 1968-69
The Dominators
The Mind Robber
The Invasion
The Krotons
The Seeds of Death
The Space Pirates
The War GamesThe Third Doctor

Season Seven - 1970
Spearhead from Space
Doctor Who and the Silurians
The Ambassadors of Death
InfernoSeason Eight - 1971
Terror of the Autons
The Mind of Evil
The Claws of Axos
Colony In Space
The DaemonsSeason Nine - 1972
Day of the Daleks
The Curse of Peladon
The Sea Devils
The Mutants
The Time MonsterSeason Ten - 1972-1973
The Three Doctors
Carnival of Monsters
Frontier In Space
Planet of the Daleks
The Green DeathSeason Eleven - 1973 - 1974
The Time Warrior
Invasion of the Dinosaurs
Death to the Daleks
The Monster of Peladon
Planet of the SpidersThe Fourth Doctor
The Fifth Doctor

Season Nineteen - 1982
Castrovalva
Four To Doomsday
Kinda
The Visitation
Black Orchid
Earthshock
Time-FlightSeason Twenty - 1983
Arc of Infinity
Snakedance
The Guardian Trilogy:
Mawdryn Undead
Terminus
Enlightenment
The King's Demons20th Anniversary Special
The Five DoctorsSeason Twenty-One - 1984
Warriors of the Deep
The Awakening
Frontios
Resurrection of the Daleks
Planet of Fire
The Caves of AndrozaniThe Sixth Doctor

Season Twenty-One - 1984
The Twin DilemmaSeason Twenty-Two - 1985
Attack of the Cybermen
Vengeance On Varos
The Mark of the Rani
The Two Doctors
Timelash
Revelation of the Daleks Season Twenty-Three- 1986
The Trial of a Timelord:
The Mysterious Planet
Mindwarp
Terror of the Vervoids
The Ultimate FoeThe Seventh Doctor

Season Twenty-Four - 1987
Time And the Rani
Paradise Towers
Delta And the Bannermen
DragonfireSeason Twenty-Five - 1988
Remembrance of the Daleks
The Happiness Patrol
Silver Nemesis
The Greatest Show In the GalaxySeason Twenty-Six - 1989
Battlefield
Ghost Light
The Curse of Fenric
SurvivalThe Eighth Doctor

I’m not a karaoke lover. I enjoyed sing a song without microphone and music. At least it is less annoyed—at least it isn’t as loud.
After a year I had a chance to go to karaoke last Thursday. I felt really old! At least the song I can think of isn’t that modern. How old is Rod Stewart and ABBA by the way?
Anyway, you probably know how Thai people crazy about Karaoke—and that’s nothing wrong. In comparison Filipinos are 10 times crazy. And I got use to it when I was there; people sing a song and dance. Believe it or not! About a half of the population has a karaoke box at home!!!
Anyway the karaoke was suppose to be Cool and Fun thing to do. At least when you feel lonely or being under pressure, But this Karaoke night isn’t going to be fun because we got stood up!
Somebody who organizes this party has already invited
around 15 people or so and they didn’t show up! And this party was supposed to be more likely a wedding party announcement… but the soon-to-be gloom appeared there only 15 mins and he just left!
There were only 3 people left in a big room, the room was quite more than a normal Karaoke room because that was supposed to be 15 people there. Anyway, we managed to sing and dance and ordered some foods.
After the party ends, its time to pay the bills! And the worst part was that who is going to pay the bill?
We stared at each other and silence.
You know I can't smile without you. I can't smile without you. I can't laugh and I can't sing— this song popup in my head in that moment.
There’s nothing worst that you know you have to pay something you’re not supposed to pay. It feel like you pay for your underwear and it doesn’t fit you ever!
Well, life doesn’t fit. Life is change. Life is Life.
After a while, a waiter hands me a bill. “Here you are…”
"Er.. right…" we'resupposed to pay this. of course we will. we have to!
Well, after the party ends, how fun? Imagine that this was my wedding party announcement thingy and there were only a few people there. That is still 10 times better than this feeling. A feeling that we got stood up and nobody care each other anymore in this society. They care only about themselves. And now that was a karaoke voice in my head.
I have just had a rotten day. The day that I want to just sit alone and cried. But I couldn’t… The day I felt so humiliated, embarrassed, disappointed, and worthless. And I still have that feeling with me all the time but I need to go on.
My parents tired to arrange my wedding without asking me. They asked my boyfriend instead. I know they’re conservative and I know they care about their image.
But what about me? I want to shout at them... like Er… Hello? Why are you doing this to me? I’m a human and I have a feeling. I can be pain and I can be hurt. I don’t think they listen to me.Even my relationship is good but I never ask for help! They don’t have the right to do anything about it!
We were happy and enjoyed out relationship—I wanted to stay a happy couple and then later we can see what this love has got to do for us, but what now!? Somebody stepped there and force us to married… Are you joking? If we are not ready why we need to? What marriage really means? A ceremony, people and cakes? Isn’t that loving each other is more important? Well, maybe not…
I feel a pang inside after we finished talking. I couldn’t do anything. It was like my whole world has turned around. It was a serious impact on us. How could I ask him if he wanted to marry me or not? How could I bear if he said that he doesn’t or I’m not ready? Should that be the end of our relationship? But if he wanted to I would think because of my family has been forced him to do that anyway.
What my parents should know is that they are not going to make me marry anyone by their behavior.
When you're living in both conservative and modern country. Where you can see both thing twisted. Especially when you are Thai woman, you are in between those tradition conservation and modern kind of things. And you are being confused all the time.
I really don’t understand why Thai parents forced their child especially their daughter to married before make sure if they love each other or they’re match. Also when the relationship won’t work anymore, a divorce considered tainted for women.
What would I say with my situation? Where the society has been banned a mini-skirt (because they think that the invitation for rape) but you can find coyote girls at many events and a lot of night clubs more than just bookstore.
There’s no easy way to handle that ever!
If I have to write about my vacations, first thing I couldn’t forget and it still scare me every night was that my sleeping walking and screaming just came back lately during my trip, and this time getting worse. I even broke the curtain rail.
I awake that night at the hotel and I seem to forget everything I did. I didn’t know what I did exactly but Colin told me that I screamed and we found out after turn the light on that the curtain rail already broken. I stood there for awhile and tried to think of what I did but useless, I can’t remember anything.
I just notice that I had a sore throat and my arms hurts so much, there was a little cut on my left arm and bruise on his arm as well.
We weren’t sure what to do … and I couldn’t fall asleep again after, I manange to sleep at last after 2 hours.
I did what I don’t remember and it was so terrible to have these symptoms back again. I wanted to cry—even I know that’s not being helpful.
Remembering, I use to send SMS while I was sleeping and I didn’t remember anything. That was terrible but this was worse.
The next morning, I told the housekeeper at the hotel that the curtain rail needs to be fix, then she asked someone to fix it, it took 2 or 3 hours to fix and they even need to changed the new rail. I really feel so terrible about this thing. Anyway, the hotel didn’t charge us for that, they simply thought their curtain rail was too old. :P
But well, broken curtain rail can be fix, but what about me? Can I be fixed?
THE JOB - URINE TEST (Whoever wrote this one deserves a HUGE pat on the back!)
